oh hello there football season...

football season has a way of getting me excited!!! oh yea! tomorrow is the start of chargers preseason!

let's go baby... IT'S FOOTBALL TIME!



too many emotions...

so... i cancelled my infertility consult...

we will reschedule eventually {maybe in a few months} but for now jason & i both realized that as the appointment date was nearing, neither of us are ready for bad news :( there is so much emotion that you bury down after a loss {let alone 2!!} & all of that started unearthing for both of us...

it's just too much right now...

and really God is so much bigger than any medical diagnosis anyway!!!

The Valley of Dry Bones
Ezekiel 37:1-14
The hand of the Lord was on me, and he brought me out by the Spirit of the Lord and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones. He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry. He asked me, “Son of man, can these bones live?”
I said, “Sovereign Lord, you alone know.
Then he said to me, “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord.’”
So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone. I looked, and tendons and flesh appeared on them and skin covered them, but there was no breath in them.
Then he said to me, “Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Come, breath, from the four winds and breathe into these slain, that they may live.’” 10 So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet—a vast army.
11 Then he said to me: “Son of man, these bones are the people of Israel. They say, ‘Our bones are dried up and our hope is gone; we are cut off.’ 12 Therefore prophesy and say to them: ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: My people, I am going to open your graves and bring you up from them; I will bring you back to the land of Israel. 13 Then you, my people, will know that I am the Lord, when I open your graves and bring you up from them. 14 I will put my Spirit in you and you will live, and I will settle you in your own land. Then you will know that I the Lord have spoken, and I have done it, declares the Lord.’”
**i used italics & bold on areas that stood out to me :)**


the power of a praying woman...

grab more tissues ladies...

we are daughters of the King of Kings!! He hears you & your prayers carry POWER!!!


101 rules: one thru seven...

i'm compiling a list of 101 rules to marriage... one thru seven are finished :)


i'm impressed with them, if i do say so myself!! slow & steady wins the race...

still a work in progress for sure!!




ladies, we have a referral...

so my obgyn appointment was lame & honestly i got no answers to any of my questions...

but i did get this...

we now have a referral to see an infertility specialist for consult & testing {the obgyn said she couldn't order any of the labs because they are not "medically necessary"} so here we go!!
let the testing begin!!! appointment is set for the end of march :)


perhaps there is a king in her...

this message just rocked my world!! thank you Jesus that you are not a man that you could lie... i hold tight to your promises that there is a king in me!! (grab a tissue before 36:00!!)


just wait til you have kids...

quick rant... well hopefully it will be quick... {I'm going to apologize in advance for all of the exclamation points lol}

so if you know me, you know i am the eternal optimist!! everything happens for a reason... what the devil meant for evil, God's got the glory {hallelujah!! thank you Jesus!!}... the cup is always half full {unless it's starbucks... so sad when it's almost gone}... one door closing means a greater opportunity is on the horizon... blah blah blah...

infertility just means more time to grow & develop in our marriage... every night is date night when you don't have kids... my miscarriages have allowed me to support so many other women that it was all worth it to give the glory to God & His plan...  just imagine how much we will appreciate the miracle of life & what a blessing our children will be to our family ... ... ...

but then some idiot says, "oh you just wait! just wait until you have kids..... {fill in the blank}"

why?? why do "negative nelly", "mr. grumpy mcgrumperson" people insist on filling in the blank!!!! do you people not know how blessed you are to be parents!!??!!

tell me, please share all of your horrible parenting stories...

-like about all the times you got no sleep
-or maybe about the time when your 2 year-old melted down... everywhere!!
-maybe you should tell me how hard it will be to be a working mom
-please inform me on how much babies cost
-what about the pregnancy symptoms that you complained about non-stop
-tell me how much my life will change...

then i can tell you a few things...

-i couldn't sleep after having my second miscarriage because i felt so alone
-what about the times i melted down seeing pregnant women... everywhere!!
-like when i had to tell family that the baby was gone... again
-please can i inform you how much infertility could cost!!!
-what about the heartache of having an empty womb month after month
-let me tell you how much my life has changed...

watch what you say about having kids "mr. mcgrumperson"...  because you have no idea...


scientific evidence that two become one...

Genesis 2:18-24

"18 Then the Lord God said, “It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him a helper fit for him.” 19 Now out of the ground the Lord God had formed every beast of the field and every bird of the heavens and brought them to the man to see what he would call them. And whatever the man called every living creature, that was its name. 20 The man gave names to all livestock and to the birds of the heavens and to every beast of the field. But for Adam there was not found a helper fit for him. 21 So the Lord God caused a deep sleep to fall upon the man, and while he slept took one of his ribs and closed up its place with flesh. 22 And the rib that the Lord God had taken from the man he made  into a woman and brought her to the man. 23 Then the man said,
This at last is bone of my bones
    and flesh of my flesh;
she shall be called Woman,
    because she was taken out of Man.”
24 Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh."
hey party people!! i have heard so many stories recently about long time lovers {aka MARRIED PEOPLE!!! ... i love calling my hubby "lover"... God knew what he was doing when He created all aspects of marriage... i still get butterflies}...
where was i?? oh yes!! long time lovers :)  ...  check out this blog from the daily stir about the latest married couple to die within hours of each other... (& he didn't even know his wife had passed!!)
i count this as scientific evidence of Genesis 2:24... two become one flesh... he could no longer survive without his lover...
Couple Married 67 Years Die Within Hours of Each Other Without Knowing It 
by Jenny Erikson 

When Olympia DeNittis died last week at the age of 95, her family decided not to tell her husband of 67 years about her passing. The two were being treated in separate care facilities just miles apart, and they hoped that Michael DeNittis, 94, would continue to fight his four-year battle with colon cancer if he believed his wife was still alive.
Instead, his family reports that he dreamed of his own death on the night his wife died, and he quietly slipped away the next day. The couple's granddaughter AnnMarie McDonald said, “It was bizarre ... I think instinctually he knew she had died.”
The two grew up in the same neighborhood and had been childhood sweethearts. They married after World War II and, according to the family, had a great romance and were inspirational to many. McDonald said, “They were both remarkable people. We relied on their guidance and insight until the end. And now they’re together.”
The granddaughter also said that Olympia was dying of a broken heart (although it was pneumonia that finally took her) and that she wanted to get to Heaven first so she could be there to welcome him.
While death is always sad, there is something valiant about living a life with love so deep that you sense a part of you dying when your soul mate passes away. Michael had no way of knowing about Olympia’s death, yet he dreamed that he had died. Not that she had died, but that he himself had.
What a sweet and poignant tribute to love and to a long and fruitful life on Earth. It’s obvious they will be missed here, but I hope their story continues to be an inspiration to many.
just a sweet reminder of our awesome God... now go hug your lover!!